I remember back when I was working with on his Ed, Edd n Eddy RPG fangame...until I quit the job and blocked him...mainly because, A, It was too much work for me, B, I was too lazy to do it and don't feel it, and C, he was kinda pushing my buttons.
I had a girlfriend who is a friend to him, but I dumped her because, A, my parents forced me to broke up with her(Which I did. She's got a new boyfriend now.), and B, she was being a bully/stalker to me.
Sure I had some terrible friends in the past, but that was back then when I was an asshole(Which my parents kept saying that I'm not). Maybe that's the reason why nobody listens to me. I think it's mainly because I was acting like a jackass. Perhaps that's one reason why I haven't got a single comment on my deviation.
Not only that, but blocked me for giving him spams. I want to go apologize to him, but I wonder if he still won't talk to me? , if you're reading this, even though you hate me now, I want to apologize about giving you spams. Please forgive me for being an idiot! ^^u
And to tell you the truth, now I'm starting to think that I am an A-hole. I was trying to be more optimistic and mature, but who am I kidding? I'm more pessimistic than anyone else. And I don't mean to say this to everyone, but if I wasn't born with autism and learning disability, I'd be more mature and optimistic by now. But unfortunately, that's not going to happen. As a matter of fact, I'm starting to think that in the future, I will never change. I'll just be a stupid a-hole forever.
*sigh* I wish there was some way that I can change. Mainly I want to stop getting into arguments and fights with my mom, And I want to stop being pessimistic. And I'm also starting to think about leaving DeviantART again and never come back. But if I do that, then I will have a second chance of coming back and people will find me that I am an asshole. Not only that, but I kept unfavoriting and refavoriting stuffs that I like all the time. And it's getting to the point where people are going to say," Alright! That does it! Enough's a enough! You're an asshole! I was you leave DeviantART and never come back! EVER! Now you know why we comment you on your deviations! It's because you're an asshole to everyone on DeviantART! I wish you die already!" And that's what I'm afraid of. I was afraid that people in DeviantART are finally gonna be fed up with me, being on DeviantART. I only have 3 accounts: One fanarts, One projects, etc. and I keep using Chibi Maker because I don't feel like drawing and I don't feel like working on stuff.
So I'm wondering that if I'm gonna leave for good and never come back ever again? Could it be that this site is not for me? Could it be that everyone tries to commit suicide, hack peoples' accounts, and all that? You know what? I think this is it for me...for real! I think it's time I leave this site forever! Why? I don't know. I think it's not suited for me. And I'm starting to think that I never focus on real life. In fact, I was so addicted to Youtube that I never focus on working!
I think this might be it. I'm done! I'm done being on this site! I'm never ever coming back to this site again! I am finished! I am done! FARE. THE FUCKING. WELL!